::steam coming out of ears::

Well Mrs SC was absolutely right. I should have never become friends with N. and should have ended my relationship with her long before now. That woman has the nerve to accuse me of doing something 'not right' with her child while I babysat him for free. To top it all she doesn't accuse me of this to my face so that I could defend myself but she tells all this to J. before telling me a dumbed down version. I am abolutely horrified that she would even think this, I have never even raised my voice to that child (unlike her banshee screaming every time they come over). I would never raise my hand to a child and for her to imply to a third party that I did is just plain wrong. Beside that she is basing this assumption on the fact that her kid gets upset when they come over but as far as I can tell this is a complete lie. Her kid has never cried over being here, he is all smiles and scrambling up the stairs when he sees us. He gives me and V hugs, I don't think an abused child would be that friendly. Of course he does pry toys out of V's hands but he does that when N is here as well, and she yells her head off at him for that. I don't even yell, the only thing I have ever said to that boy is to stop taking the toys away that he already had a turn and why don't we just put them away for now. That doesn't sound that bad right?
I get the feeling that she just wants J to stop being friends with me so she could have her all to herself. She talks rather nastily to J about me and then turns around and says she has never talked about me behind my back because she thinks J agrees with her and doesn't tell me all the crap that N says about me. I am now offically cutting off all communication with that woman. With friends like that who needs enemies right?

On the up side

Vova can count to 10 ( he forgets to include the 6 )
Vova knows 9 letters of the alphabet (A, B, C, G, P, S, T, U, Y)
Can build an awsome tower out of pyramid rings putting the smallest ring in the bottom and building up.
Vova can put 2 words together and is obviously the most awsome kid on the plannet. Oh okay he is tied for that title with Emma, Eva, Lukas, Ava, Abby and the future children of Miss AM, Miss EL, and Miss J, and Mrs JN.


Love,
Me

maybe when I stop being very very upset I will write something more intresting about our life but for now I am going to steam off the internet.

Advice please

I watch a toddler boy ever Tuesday and Thursday for about an hour and a half to two hours for a friend. I have been doing this for over 6 months with no compensation. Originally I agreed to this because I thought I would have physical therapy soon and would need her to watch V as well, but I don’t. I also thought this would be a one time deal of 8weeks of therapy for her and then no more, but she was sent back to therapy and no end is in sight. I have never asked her to watch V and am no feeling very resentful of her and her boy. I don’t like that I have to give up those two hours everyday to a kid V barely gets along with, both boys like the same toys and fight like mad. On top of that She just expects me to take her son for every appointment she has without even asking me about it. She also refers to me as her babysitter and I hate that because babysitters get paid and she never even treats me when we go out although she always says she will. Maybe it won’t be so bad when the weather turns really sour but right now I hate it. I want it to stop and don’t know how without ruining the friendship.
Any ideas?
Oh I have also met a new friend J. and her little girl Abby. V loves Abby and I like J. We are close in age and share a lot of the same interests, plus our husbands get along. My other friend N., whose kid I watch, also knows J and is now trying to cause problems because she thinks I prefer J to her. I know she talks behind my back to J (J told me) and has even made a suggestion that I like J in the more then friend’s kind of way. It basically feels like we are in high school. N says that I always want to hang out with J and take her only as an alternative to J. She says a lot of stuff that isn’t true and I have told her that all of this is not true but she seems to think of these friendships as competitions. I have never been more popular. Of course what gets me is that if I was sexually attracted to J, N had no business pointing it out and ruining my chances. I told DH about it and last night we had dinner with J and her Dh and had a good laugh about it. Predictably N has not told me that she thinks I have the ‘hots’ for J and not her.

Any advice would be much appreciated.
Love,
ME